okie dokie now. i found a way to add a title onto my posts!!! yeah yeah!!! finally aye? after soooo long, i finally have that function! yeah yeah. it's because my previous format never let me add in titles.
well yesterday, i was completely screwed up. i felt sooo bad. but now i know how i'll feel. keke^^ so for now, i'm just going to avoid him for as long as i possibly can. i did it without seeing him once ever in 2 years or at least two years. two years would have been this coming february the 20 sumthing.
well yanny was right about one thing. i haveta move on. keke^^ yeah, i moped around and cried alot for like 8 months on end.
in the past 2 years, i have gone from being extremely happy and feeling absolutely great to rock bottom. and now, i'm in a state of numbness. not the type where you don't feel n e thing, but the type where whatever is done hurts more. yeah, you know when your leg falls asleep and you try to move it but it hurts alot more? that's the type of feeling i have.
the same person that i allowed me to feel happiness beyond the greatest extent has also caused me to feel the utmost of hurt. and even as friends it still happens. wow. i wonder why i allow people like that to hurt me. blah.
well i don't believe in getting over someone by first hating them. i mean, it's natural to hate someone that causes you alot of pain, but for me, i get mad at myself for hating someone. i mean, the only type of people i can say i hate are like the blond corner in my school, but even then, i still say that they are sweetie pies. i just do not believe that someone is completely bad. it's called the ying yang affect. even someone that does alot of crimes still has some sort of compassion, even if it is in a twisted sort of way, he/she would still have compassion. if someone was almost perfect, there would still be a part of them that has human nature and sinfulness.
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