yes, val and i were right. val's mommy was right. hm. there was something in her that we just didn't see. maybe because we didn't want to see or sumthing. hm. i know my feelings for her still won't change. i mean, i've lost a lot of respect for her, but either way, did we not expect something like this to happen?

she is human. blah, humans ain't perfect. i'm used to that. so if she can forgive herself, i can forgive her too. If GOD is able to forgive anyone, i may as well try my hardest to forgive her. plus it's not actions she did to me, it is actions that affect her mostly. she has no one to blame but herself.

it's not the fact that she did those things that drives me insane. what drives me insane is that she is blaming her own actions on other people! that i really hate. but i know i do it too. so if i get mad at her for just that reason, then well, you know, i would be making myself more and more of a hypocrite. so basically, i forgive her. that's just the way i am. i still love them even if they want to hate me.

just look at winston as an example. sighs. i don't even know what the hell i did to that kid. he treated me like shit and i still miss that kid. what the hell right? well yeah, if you wanna ask me later, i'll tell you the whole story. keke^^ but still, winston hates me, i don't know what i did to him. i miss him even though i know he doesn't miss any part of me. so yeah.

if i can still love him and forgive him for treating me like crap, i can forgive her la. sighs sighs. even though i don't wish that this happened, but it did. there's nothing i can do except to accept and move on.