Messed Up

blah, i feel as if you people are like afraid to hang out with me just cause i'm still friend with certain people. what the hell? args args. you freak out and worry sooo muchie. ags args

honestly, i feel sooo used cause all we ever talk about is either your problems or your worries. basically, the same thing. blah. it's not my fault now is it? sighs sighs. i have my problems too, and you pushing your fears onto my life is not something that i want to ever happen. and well my friends are my life, but do i really need a friend that is unwilling to ever chill with me just becuase they are afraid to live their own life? holy shit.....i don't need this crap.

no one controls my life....i mean, i have limitations to things that i do because i know they are wrong. i don't do many things because i know i would rather not lie to my parents about something that i've done. i know, i can lie to my parents about something i will be doing, but something that i will do is another story. it's more difficult for me to lie about something that i've done. i feel guilty for doing something wrong. so yeah, excuse me, i have many boundaries that i am happy to live up to! yeah, you may say it's a control, i say it's not. a control is something that runs your life, my parents don't do that. they simply just give me the rules knowing that i will break a few and keep the rest i don't break.