stuck

sighs sighs. i'm stuck in a rut. i think i care too muchie. sighs sighs.

i treat everyone the same. as it seems...this is why people say they can't love me in "that" way. sighs sighs. a depression right before school starts...oh how greats. sighs sighs.

args....how is it possible that i am conflicted with the good side and the bad side?!?! how is that possible?!?!? how is it possible that i am conflicted with what is wrong and what is right? how is that possible? args......

what is right is not safe.....what is safe is not right. sighs sighs. i suppose this is why i am conflicted. but i have not been afraid of loosing my life nor of being unsafe. i am just plainly afraid for others. the pain of others. i don't like others hurting. but i can't stop the world from shedding tears. it's just not possible. i can't rid this world of every kind of evil sin. GOD didn't even send his son to STOP sinning people, he tried to give them a better path so that they may begin to sin less! sighs sighs.

sighs sighs. what has this world come to? i just odn't understand. how can the world become so chaotic in just a blink of an eye? or is it simply because i have never really wanted to see and therefore remained blind for like most of my life? sighs sighs.

why did i not see that everything was strategic?!?!? why didn't i see this early?!?! sighs sighs. why didn't i take the sign and prevented hurt?!?! why why?!?!?