i know what is right, but will i be able to do it?
if i am put into the situation to defend or stand back, what would i do?
What makes standing for is right this time make the decision such a hard one?
i'm being paranoid.....someone take me away from all this paranoia.....it's raising my heart rate levels...i can feel it.
i don't understand......why am i so emotionally conflicted? it shouldn't be sooo difficult! i know what is right, why don't i just do what is right?!?!? why why why?!!?!?
sighs sighs, all i feel like doing now is crying one explosive wail and see what happens next. sighs sighs. but tears still don't come to my face. oh wellz, maybe it's still not great enough.
when will all this stupidity stop?!?!? when will all this crap come to an end? when will i stop being sooo paranoid?!?! args....
this burden isn't something that i'm supposed to carry. this burden wasn't even made for me. and if it is...i'm just making it heavier.
well yeah.....i'm oging to avoid all my friends. i'm trying to stay a hermit this school year. well there will be the odd random occassion where i'll go out with my friends, i just wanna keep most of my friends away from my problems as much as possible. i know if that i see them because i need to get out.....it will only result to blurting stupid things.
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