Friday, October 08, 2004

clouded judgement

sighs sighs. my heart feels sooo heavy. but why?!?!? what's wrong with me?!?! this whole day was supposed to be fun and happy, but yet along the whole way, i felt gloomy, well not at bbt.

sighs sighs.

yeah....even when in like an asian place in mississauga, i still don't feel like i fit in n e where. i mean, of course i have my random groups of friends all over the place, but meh, what does that all mean?!?! yeah, i have friends. most of them close because i tell most of my friends everything going on in my life.

i'm not even listening to depressing music and all i feel like doing is crying. actually, for once, instead of just saying i feel like it, i am. sighs sighs.

i don't feel like i fit in n e where. sighs sighs.

don't feel like going out cept to stay at home get fat and just stare at my life in front of me. blah....

and i am always complaining that i have nothing to do.....oi....man.

yeah, got insulted by a person that i didn't know and basically he called me a book worm. saying that i stay home and study and call that fun.....i didn't retaliate....felt no need to justify n e thing. but it's true, i rather stay home....willing or unwillingly, i will stay home. sad i know, sighs sighs.

does n e one wanna go do sumthing with me that doesn't involve mula unless you are willing to pay for me?!?!?

wait....i wanna go for pho....sighs sighs.......

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