hungee

sighs sighs. i'm awfully hungee. ate lunch today though. but i'm trying to eat less proportions because i eat toooo muchi. most times when i'm hungree i like just drink water cause it's not meal times. blah.

yeah......basically starved myself for like two days......well not really starving myself cause i'd actually eat. but yeah.

lost two pounds, but i'll prolly gain them all back from din din i suppose.

but then again, i've been constantly scared for my weight. i'm like rather unhealthy cause i can gain and drop sooo much weight. it's not very healthy. the doctor says there's nothing wrong. but i feel like there is sumthing wrong.

like after one meal no matter how much or how little i eat, i gain like 5 pounds....and thoughout the day, it stays there. and by the next morning, i don't loose that weight! args args. so very very horrible.