tears...

i am unable to cry. but i am no longer afraid to cry. my tears will not hurt n e one. but i know crying continually, well, is egh....rather bad.

sooo many things sooo many things.

wei she me ni hui da ta?!?!? ni ke bu ke yi tong wo shou le?!?!?

args......

my own safety is risk or so other say....blah...

you can block me if you like....blah....do i make you feel guilty?!?!? i'll rub this guilt in your face till you get pissed.....and come after me....args. can't you understand that she doesn't want you?!?!? obviously not. and those that want you liked the way you were before, are also changed. sighs. people grow cold. anger is better kept to self. blah.....if you wanna beat someone ....beat me up......i'm a girl, and the chances of well being permantly affected by a fight is much more than a male. blah......

people deserve what they get, and if you treat people the way you do, you better watch out. "good hearts have their rewards" and "bad hearts have their punishments" so you noe what?!?!? even if i do not step in physically, every part of me wants to help the one who you hurt. but yet my heart just wants you to stop. but it's not like you care, obviously so because you still hurt him n e ways.

do you find enjoyment in hitting someone?!?!? do you find satisfaction seeing someone in pain!?!? do you find fulfilment in seeing how you can beat up someone who is unsuspecting?!?! do you find amusement in the stupid stuff you are doing?!?!? do you feel joy in doing the things you do?!?!? if so, i'd rather you hurt me okay?!!? they were fine and always will be fine. even if you killed him, you know what?!?!? she won't like you ne more than she hates you now. the difference between her and i is that she never liked you more than a friend, but now, she will always hate you. you obviously don't see things clearly n e more. blah....you may have perfect vision phsycially, but your mental vision really needs some major corrective lenses. blah....so if you haveta hurt that person just hit me. but i'm a girl, and i know you wouldn't just hit me, you'd knock me out and then rape me....blah.....i always said i wouldn't get an abortion......no form of life deserves that kind of death; even if in scientific terms it's called an embryo.....i still call it life. so yeah.....all you scientists out there....kiss my ass!!!! so yeah....i'd love the kid and have more reason to hate you.

do you think i'm blind or deaf?!?! do you think my friends don't tell me what the shit is going on?!?!? they simply hold it from me because they know that i'd get upset. but you know what?!?!? i can't sit around and only hear one fucking side of your stupidity.

i hate you.....i love you....i miss the way you were.....what the fuck happened?!?!?

you fucking lost your self in all this shit that you are inflicting on to others. if you were to take one good look at yourself...just one good look....you'd see that there are reasons why you say you don't have alot of "friends". sighs sighs. i wanted to be one of those people who could stand by your side till the very end. i think someone who i call a friend deserves that....but it's things like this that fuck up everything you know? i just can't take this shit n e more. fuck you.....fuck whatever made you change to become such horrible speck in this population of humans.

you were cunning. you always were. you were clever. you always were. you were lovable. but you will never be in my eyes n e more. i loved who you were...not who you are now...but my love doesn't mean shit to you. you just stomped on it the first time, but you have never really understood why i could give my love to you. and you know what......maybe there was something about you that you knew that you felt guilty for.....i will never know......blah...people change and shit i know. blah....but did you haveta resort to the level of idiocy that you are at now???? blah....by doing all this shit that you've done......you are simply just stupid now..... a man who deserves respect doesn't resort to violence except only to defend self.

just cause he took your girl.....he doesn't deserve this fucking shit you put him through....that girl was never yours actually. you only coveted her and lusted for her in your mind....but she was never ever yours...she will never for eternity be yours. if you manage to hurt him physically, i'll even make sure that you never get her. i haven't stepped him to help him cause there is nothing i can do to defend him......but if you touch a hair on her head.....i'll make sure you touch one of my hairs so that someone will go after you!! i will make sure you die if you touch a hair on her head!

i don't say empty words. you know i don't make empty promises. you know i mean the words i say....so yeah, my threats are as real as you feel.....be warned......

but it's not like you read....so you wouldn't care.....you wouldn't even know.....