bad day

haven't been feeling like i should study. args....gots a stupid assignment to be doing for society. this time...i'll make up my results i suppose...ew......daddy music...args....stupid music that i didn't remember to delete...ew.....

sigh sighs. blah....think i'm feeling shitty all over again. blah......

crummy day n e one?

it's not like any one cares about all this shit that happens in this world.

i am not a delinquent as most people think. i am stubborn yes.....

don't want n e thing to happen. i just want things the way they used to be.

i was happy and everyone else was happy.

no problems were ever around. sighs sighs.

do people even know me? do people know you? are you just hiding from me because you just don't want me to see and know? sighs sighs. everything spinning in my head like theres no way out. all these memories that just come rushing again and again. it would be nice for you to show that you cared. it's great that some people could make you feel sooo great and then just drop you to your death. why is everyone so cruel? why is human nature so uncaring? why is everyone so concerned about themselves? there's no future with me and you. there was nothing to ever begin. why bother when everything is just going to end up in a disaster? it's not like n e one could ever give me what i want. feeling rather empty as most people in depression do. blah.

stupid people talking bout stupid shit. people look at you as if they know you. people judge you by just looking at you. people hate you even before getting to know you. all eyes are on you. everyone's judging you just the way you look. you can't look away because you'll see someone else's eyes looking back into you. wanting to run, but your feet feel glued to the floor.

frustrated and confused is the state i remain. halucinating and fantisizing because nothing ever goes my way. tooo foolish and stubborn for my own good. nothing i do goes my way. crazy crazy crazy is just the way i feel. nothing you do or say can make me not feel this way. all these stares all these eyes...all this attention. but then again, what attention is this since no one cares to begin with. blah....