think i'm becoming sick again. i'm having the biggest headaches again. sighs sighs. it's really rather sad. i have these like headaches where i can't do n e thing because everything just agrivates this pain. args args!!!!!
well n e whoo.....wearing a guy jacket these days. keke^^:D:P well tooo bad, you know what?!?!? it was cheap and it's super super warm!!!! keke^^:D:P 20$ people!!!! that's how you save the big$ keke^^:D:P you just shop at like the outlet's, when mall's are having big sales.....and just in general....by the last season's clothes. i could care less, i have alot of clothes that i know i don't wear often. it really doesn't matter. keke^^:D:P there are sooo much stuff that i just wouldn't wear. so yeah. keke^^:D:P me a tired bum bum.
wanted everything to work out between everything and everyone.....but it just won't work....it didn't work. blah. but it's a good thing......oh yeah....i'm applying to five uni's ga la! keke^^:D:P blah.....so far...gonna get that darned like mcleans stupid university ranking book thingy. well guess what ontario university is rated number one overall!!!! ray would be thrilled..... UNIVERSITY OF WATERLOO!!!!!! woooo whooooo!!!!! just cause of that....my parents are letting me like apply there. yeah yeah! keke^^:D:P but i know waterloo is known for maths and engineering. it really doesn't matter the marks i get as long as i graduate....so yeah. keke^^:D:P i'm not my sister.....i can never get marks like she does. sighs sighs. but you know what?!?!? my mommy has never asked me to be like my sister...and she totally understands that i can never be like her. but my dad on the other hand...=.= let's just not go there....my marks are never good enough for him....he sees sooo much of him in me that he just yells at me all the time because he knows how i am deep down inside. it's not a bad thing....
i need a stupid 5th choice.....
guelph
mac
waterloo
laurier (i know i know, the campus on university street is small and crappy....but i could really care less.....they have another campus...so meh.....)
fifth choice......still debating.....think i might just apply to ottawa because i'm afraid i won't get in n e where else besides ottawa. :'(
yeah, i have no confidence in myself. i seem to be this big and strong person, but really, deep down inside, i'm just this terrified little girl. i don't talk to strangers because the unknown scares me. people can put on masks, and the masks of people scare me. some people seem soo nice and then all of a sudden......their real character shows through....and it's horrible. sighs sighs. but i know it isn't for me to judge. see....if you look at all my friends....you will see the type of person i am. keke^^:D:P if you really look at it...each and everyone of my friends has a quality that i posses...maybe not as well as they have mastered that character....but if you get to know my friends more....you'll see it....that's if you wanna even think about it....
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