coming to terms

i have come to the fact that none of your business is mine. if you tell me...then i should be happy that you told me. it's not my fault if i ask what's wrong and you don't tell me. if you don't tell me after i ask, it's your fault that you don't wanna tell. well not fault really, it's your choice. i should accept that. this is the same if people ask me what's wrong and i don't tell them what's wrong. if i don't tell you, it's my fault that i feel like shit in front of you. you have the right to bitch at me for making your day shitty if i'm not happy while around you. but people don't have the right to question you till you feel even worst because you don't want to tell. if you really don't want to know and yet you ask what's wrong, then are you not just asking for a shit load of complaint if the person really wanted to tell you? it's freedom of choice and freedom of speach.

none of my business is anyone else's business. they ask because they care. they are entitled to know....maybe not at that exact moment, but at least later on in life. but then again, in life nothing's worth the pain and the torment. then again, why mention it and not tell what the hell is up? if you hint at it....are you not just plainly asking for others to ask you what?

i don't get it. we used to be the bestest of friends. and these days....all i ever do is get pissed at what you say. sighs. maybe i'm just too sensitive with certain people....or people in general. sighs sighs. i didn't wanna get mad....but you said it like you just didn't wanna tell me and told me only cause you wanted someone to talk to. sighs sighs. maybe i'm wrong for thinking that way. sighs sighs. if he wanted me to know, he'd tell me. and obviously, he didn't so i shouldn't have known n e ways. args.....stupid fuckers....args.

should totally cut back on all my cursing. sighs sighs.

you don't read this....and it's pointless to apologize on this. but i do not feel like picking up the phone to say sorry even though i know i did something wrong.

i'm not that great of a person. maybe it's cause i don't want n e one to know this and therefore i hide myself behind everything.

don't know...whatever.....tomorrow will be a better day. so yeah. everything'll be all good. yeah yeah yeah.