okie. i have hit the bottom of my stupid joy ride. but now, i am alot more calm and happy than a few hours ago. i shouldn't say happy....just more satisfied. well hearing one thing totally bursted my bubble. how fun aye? but then again, thinking about all this, i'm not surprised. i have met some very inconsiderate stupid assholes in my life. sighs sighs. but then again, i am probably one of those inconsiderate people to a few people. args.
i don't know what's wrong...but things like this....i feel sooo upset. i mean....i can take rejection, but when i hear others are hurt, it totally bites ass and i suddenly fall to the bottom of the pit. my life is one big bubble that involves just me. oh how selfish i am. sighs sighs. i am tired. i am exhausted. i am sad. but every part of me is hyper, happy and energetic. sighs.
this coming week will be the last week of school before the last day of school. i have one report due on monday. i have an essay due some time near the end of the week. and i have an essay that has a deadline on the 15th. i'm finished the one due on the 15th. i am done the one that's due somewhere at the end of the week. i just need to do the one that's due monday.
school is such a happy thought for me. weird aye? i don't know why, but even though i am by myself or with raychee most of the time, i feel completely satisfied. i hope miss carroll is getting better. her allergy seems sooo severe. sighs. man...i have seen jordan or valerie for sucha long time. sighs sighs. well i haveta start wrapping my christmas gifts since i ain't going to see most of em for a while. yeah. i'll probably be caged at home because my parents don't want me driving even though i will. sighs sighs. gotsta drive over to jacky's some time. how fun.
well christmas is coming and at this present moment, i feel like shit and i don't deserve this christmas season. i have been this one big ungreatful lil bitch. yes....i called myself a bitch. sighs sighs. well everything's gonna be o-k. everything is always eventually a-o-k. life goes on....no use to be upset over spilt milk.
all i can do is curse those people that cause shit for others....but when i do that...i'm cursing GOD in a way....for he created those people. sighs sighs. must be gracious for the easy times and the hard.
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