looking at old memories...basically reading my old emails and whatnot....i haven't forgotten that i still haven't accepted your apology. because i feel that if i didn't tell you how upset i was, you wouldn't have cared at all. and reading it over and over again, you say sorry for what you feel to be your own failures.
if i hadn't sent that email...what would have you done?!?! meh.....well i won't question the past because i did sent it.....meh....
even though looking back at times.....like some other person that i've talked too....and how he wishes that life were back to happier times like in mca in grade 8. dunno.....
how you can only ever wish to turn back the hands of time, but you may never be able to. meh.....
these days.....i've given myself another chance to improve. for now, it's working. staying unattached as possible, but as attatched as i wish to be is working for me. i fulfill my own need to be around people and feel their caring and me....to give my caring away and show my love.......i dunno....maybe people feel like i'm isolating myself....but at the present moment...this has caused me to feel totally satisfied with my life. no big stresses besides the trivial issue of university and school....
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