songs

well...i was listening to a few chinese songs....but i'm tooo lazy to find the lyrics for them now. i'll just tell you the parts that utterly touched me tonight.

i treat you well, you treat me well. i like you, and in that way, your actions reflect that you like me too. and then you distance yourself, so what is that supposed to mean? you thought i was happy the way i was, but that was the time when i felt the most miserable. i smiled to keep you happy. i feel hollow on the inside. it seems that all i am to you is a free ride in this world. you only needed me to further the place you were currently in. i thought you were different. i thought the outcome would be different. i guess i was wrong. like so many times in life, i was so utterly wrong in this. how do you think i can still look at you and smile? how do i even find the strength to be decent to you. i question myself why i allowed my emotions to take a hold of me. no answer forms in my head. i so often question myself why, but each and every time, i cannot answer the questions i ask. i wish this feeling wasn't just a game to you. this hurts really bad. you played my emotions. i got you somewhere in life where you didn't even bother to say thank you for. you are ungrateful. i am hurt, but you don't even know. i smile even though i am hurt. i will still be grateful. i will forgive, but forgetting is another matter. i was loved, i loved, and will always love. always and forever a part of my hurt will be with you. just remember, you
meant something to me even if i meant nothing to you.

muhahaha....well that's it... hahaha...well it's not just from one song....i suppose it's selective hearing to the parts of songs you want to hear....but yeah....from a few songs actually...tooo lazy to post like all 4 of em....but haha, it just kinda flowed...muhahaha. but n e whoos....leaving now...