massive headache=.= ewwwwwww....but apparently, massive headaches that last for days runs in my family. my grandmother had it....i have it. args.....i need to get out of the city!!!!! the smog is killing me!!!! it actually is killing me!!!!!! i can't breath properly....aiya......
i think i'm gonna go take a shower and sleep at 9 today.....i just can't handle this....it way toooo hurts....i hate tylenol....i hate taking medicine.....but i think this time....i haveta take it.....ewwwww....
yeah....you know my bruised knuckes?^o) well one of them is actually really bruised...and the other one....the bruise is completely gone...but it still hurts when you add pressure to it.....but....i have most of my punching bag thingy filled...so....no problems.....muhahahaha. gotsta actually find another outlet for my anger.....this isn't good.....
i've been super frustrated lately....i have been sooooo angry and mad....it may be the anger, but my temper shouldn't flair like this constantly...it's just wrong.....please pray for me.....i have been trying to work on my temper for years...and lately, it's just gotten out of hand....my anger is consuming me.....sighs.....my frustration against the world increases....please.....i need help....
what's funnay is that when i have a personality problem, i normally find it for myself....and when people say it to me, i already knew that i had a problem. but the thing is....i just don't believe it because they always phrase it in ways that i don't like. sighs. but yeah....i do have a control issue. i like to always be right. and i get mad when i am wrong....but not saying what yours is wrong...but in light of me being wrong, some of it can still be right.....and i just want to be heard....so i apologize for ever going down n e ones throat for their opinion....
apparently, my pelvis bone got wider....and my sister was like...yeah, that's just what happens, your a chick....it gets larger because it is preparing you for the future=.= this was in the morning...she's like...see, you have the larger hips and ass than i do now....you have the perfect figure....minus the little pudge in the middle....but you just need to walk some more or sumthing for that pudge to go away....but yeah....you will have less pain when you concieve....wow.=.= sucha not a morning topic...but she said that just as i woke up=.=
yeah, according to my sisters....i am loosing all my baby fat.....well i have been loosing baby fat for years now....but she says that it's very noticeable around my knuckes. i used to have a litterally very round fist.....i don't know if it's because i've been punching things for a long time, or if what she says is true. she also says i look malnutritioned because my face has such a defined chin....but that she doesn't know whether or not that is just because of my braces....i have always looked skinnier with braces for some reason.....
even though she says that....i know i am fat....i am 130 pounds....i am the heaviest asian chick i know. sighs sighs. i exercise...i work out.....i eat alot less than i used to....and i'm still 130.....sighs....12 % body fat means shit when you still feel fat.....but....i must learn to stop comparing myself to the rest of the asian population. i no longer live in hk. i barely even speak proper canto n e more=.= args.....
gotsta eat less.....gotsta stop eating microwaveable meals....i'm lactose intolerant and those microwaveable meals are like super loaded with milk products that gets me sick after digestion....
well let's see.....i have most of my things packed for uni....i mean....there is this foreign student that is coming for a month in the summer, so yeah....keke^^:D:P packing my things in boxes and stuff....halfly to prevent her from stealing my sheeeeet......and halfly getting ready to move into uni.....sighs.....i hope this summer people are going to make plans with me instead of the other way around. no one ever makes damn stinking plans with me. they always want me to do it! =.= i mean...i like planning things...but when it doesn't turn out, everyone always blames me....it's not my fault i have to plan every single one!!=.= it's just not fair....
sighs....i want a hug...feeling sooo sheeeety=.=
1 comment:
Woman u are not fat silly, and 12% body fat IS NOT HEALTHY especially if u ever want to have kids take it from me the healthy range for women is 17%-20something so as long as ur there ur good anything under 12 leads to alota health problems SO WOMAN lol calm down u should be more conerned wit gettin that percentage up or u can develop amenorreah which seems like a blessing at first then it becomes seriouse, trust me i know first hand
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