you don't know me...

you don't know me all that well. you think you do, but the total truth of the matter is that you don't know all of who i am. you don't understand that some of the things you meant as a joke still hurt sometimes....but....i still pretend they don't hurt.

you think you know everything about me. you draw paralells about me with other people you know....i may be similar...but i am neither the same as them or them as i.

i don't want to be pissed off. and yeah, what you said made me pissed off....i don't know what it was about it....it just pissed me off. i don't have issues about being proven wrong....you haveta give me evidence that i am wrong.....what you would do when you drive is simply what you do....you have no right telling me what to do because you would have done it....I AM NOT YOU.....

it hurts that i take sooo much time to try to get to know you.....but it seems that sometimes, you don't know me at all. yeah, words mean alot to me. sometimes....even more than actions. that's the way i am. whether or not you are joking or not....things you say...i take seriously. i have always been one to think and dwell. if you don't like that in me...you don't like me at all....so just go away.

i don't know why i'm raving and ranting....all i know is that i'm upset. i'm upset at the fact that you didn't try to say n e thing after i apologized for yelling at you....you didn't accept it or reject it.....by you not saying it's alright and bringing the matter up again about what you would have done....it still makes me think you don't accept me yelling at you. it hurts when you don't think i am a good driver. it hurts when you don't try to talk to me and just stare out the window pretnding that nothing happened. you avoid my eyes....how the fucking hell am i supposed to react? sighs....i just wanna cry....