as i look upon my weeks....this is what i see.......there is bound to be one day which i break down, at least 2 days of happiness and 1 day of anger......and for the other 3 days....i will feel nothing at all. and today it's one of those days dat i dun feel n e thing at all. i can't think....can't consentrate....can't do n e thing. today's monday.....tomorrow is tuesday. i have no clue......i have a job now.....crap ass job. really stinks sum bum......only $7/h.......but at least it's sumthing. i dun like da peeps i work wit, but since i'm working there,,....i'll just haveta tolerate it i guess. maybe working is just an experience. i guess everything happens for a reason. i rarely even come here n e more....cause i am no longer down. the more down i am.....the more thoughts i post. i guess peeps really believe that i'm dis happy go lucky gurly. hahaha=>:D what a joke.....what a laugh.....i am totally not like dat n e more. in grade 7, i thought i found myself, but instead, i find myself questioning who i truly am because of it. i've skipped skool today....for like well....da second time dis month.......it's not good. i'm loosing my morals.....i'm loosing my standards......all my tears just flow outta my heart and through my eyes. i want to be happy......but all i can see is myself being happy and no action toward being that way. some say being happy is a 24/7 commitment. i believe this is right....but i cna't live it out.....as u can read....i'm a gurl that reflects on her actions and actions done by others toward her. i do this quite often.

now i am reflecting. i guess dis is what i do when i'm by myself and have nothing to do.....i reflect. well here goes. dis is what i see.....as a third person point of view. here goes......i'm a gurl dat can't let go of the past.....no matter how she wants to. the past memories just come flooding bak into her mind no matter how hard she tries to flee from them. then again....this gurl has tried ignoring all her past memories, but she ends up just being even more miserable than she already is. some say she's purehearted.....some say she just has a stubborn mind and heart. others just don't say n e thing at all because dey dunno what to say to her that wun effect her. everyone wants the best for her......everyone cares....even in the littlest bit, but dis gurly just can't put those words into actions. she noes that everyone cares for her because she can feel it. she can feel love. love, it's like the wind.....u can't see it, but you can feel that it's there. i guess love is one of those things that is only one thing on many levels. hahahaha=>:D funnay aye??? n e ways.....no matter how hard she tries to be happy.....she falls even more den when she tried to pick herself up. she smiles....looks happy......all just a mask.....she's a total fake. she'd be the darndest best actress u've seen in your lyphe.....why???? because damn....dis gurl can act....even if she ain't paid. soo many peeps worry about her. she's weak health wise, she's weak in spirit, she's weak in mind, she's weak just as a person. she is not a follower, but she isn't always a leader. peeps worry about her cause dey care.....she noes it. she once committed herself into making peeps happy......really....she did.....but den....now....how could she make n e one happy when she's so down herself aye??? she loved, and she still does.....lyphe goes on.....well....lil sabby here is just gonna shut up and leave now......chill outz y'all...