hahaha=>:D l8ly....everyone else;s thoughts have been in my head more than my own thoughts. i suppose that is a better thing for meh. it's better to be not self-involved...cause it seems to meh when i have da time to get self-involved...all i end up doing is hurting myself and hurting everyone else around meh. sighs. i think too much.....u think it's a problem??? then well....u really dun understand meh well enuff. i ain't saying it towards u.....i'm saying it to the world...which includes you and me.
dere's one thing i must say....it sounds alot betta in chinese...
what must i do??? there is nothing i can do. what must i say??? there is nothing i can say. i wanna push u away....i wanna pull u close. i wanna run and never come bak. i wanna hide....i wanna shine. whatever i say and whatever i do will never let u understand meh.....why??? cause u will never accept meh for who i am. grrr....acceptance dun plague my mind....i'd rather not have ur acceptance. i'd rather just run.....or in my case walk....walk to the edge of the cliff.....i'm slowly drifting to the end of the falls. yes.....the falls...such as the one like niagra falls. i will plummit....plummit to the death of me. hahahah. depressing??? so what???

hahaha=>:D aw yee ging but lay ley la.....aw ling yun say la.....dan hi.....aw gee doe aw yut ding yeew mong gai ley....
i must let go....i must move...but i have been moving...grr,,,,......pain pain pain......
it's not the same pain i suppose....cause this time it's just self inflicting. hahaha=>:d i suppose i do that alot.....i inflict pain on myself....

yes....i create trouble....u care???? hahaha=>:D i wun even want an answer for dat.....i dun even wanna hear about it....i dun even ever need to noe...cause da answer is within my heart already....so yeah....u dun haveta tell meh....grrrr....

gonna run away....one of dese days....i'll run away...run to the end.....run.....run....run....never look bak.....only if i could...sighs sighs.....grr......

can i just get amnesia??? can't i just forget everything and start as a new person???