in a carefree world, people actually do learn to not care about muchie n e more. dey teach emselves how to not get hurt and grow cold to da surroundings around em......they learn to take everything for granted, not having a heart of praise and admiration. people only learn to complain and whine about how it could be better and about what they do not have. yeah....i do dat too....i noe it's not rite....just sumtimes, it's hard. i noe, i may complain even when i'm doing things dat i like.....i should learn not to do dat, but really, i admire what i do, and i like to see da smiles on others faces. i'm selfish, but yet i'd give you da world if i noe it would benefit you, but yet dere are still many dat dun see dat and just want meh dead?am i a lil sel- fish??? hehehehe=>:D *gurgle gurgle* "look at meh, i'm a fish" j/ks j/ks....hehehe=>:D yeah.....cold jokes...i've been pulling alot of dose cold jokes lately....oh wellz....

everyone's selfish, if you want to like admit it or not, u are and if you say u ain't.....u are just lying to urself. u are one of dose biggest self-concieted liars...because it's in ur nature to be selfish....don't u dare even denying it eitha....u can't hide....da truth is rite dere in front of ya....why are u unwilling to see??? hm...dere's a song by avalon...yeah i noe....dey such a gurly pop christian group, but dey have a song called wonder why, and all i can ever rememba is dis......"why why do you eva wonder why, some people look so hard to find the truth. some can stumble ova it a thousand times..." i dunno....dese words kinda like make meh thing too muchie, but otha people's business is only dere's and GOD's....not mine.

yeah.....i think some guys have it great, yeah i admit, i'm jealous......most gurls....unless taught and learnt to feel nothing, feel much of what some guys don't feel. it's true....really come to think of it, outta all da guy friends i have, only one of em well....one of em is pretty sensitive. i dun think it's a bad trait. most guys learn to not care at a very young age....since in da nature it's a competition for everything......not dat it's not like dat with gurls. haven't u eva noticed dat when gurls get mad, well most times dey stay mad for a longer time....whereas a guy....could stay mad, but doesn't and may just end up keeping it to emselves??? i dun think n e is betta. if you as meh.....really....a gurl could be too into herself....whereas the guy, into himself, but too much out there at the same time. i suppose what some people lack is balance...dere is no borderline.....and if dere is...it's sooo thin it snaps almost as quickly as it's put up....but dat dun matta........

i think too much....i care too much.....but i sleep too lil and i eat too lil....signing off......