this thought is to no one in preticular....even doe most of my thoughts are around three or four or five people in my lyphe most times....da same three, four, five people.....but dere are times when i talk about family.....u just dun always notice da difference...

well dis is to one person, u say u hate the word sorry, but really....what has sorry ever done to you? nah nah, i'm not mad at you, i just want you to see sumthing from another veiw, u noe i couldn't hate you....this is it.....do you hate the word sorry because it reminds you of what sumone has inflicted unto you? or is it dat u hate the word because it makes you kinda regret sumthing sumhow? i dun care what ur reason is......but dis is one reason why i dun hate da word sorry. dis is just da way i see it, i may just be being stupid.....most times, sorry is when sumone wants to be forgiven....like most times...people say it too late towards meh....but i still dun hate da word......maybe dem saying sorry to meh teaches em a lesson that they neva knew....even id dey dun change....it doesn't mean dat dey haven't learnt it....just dat dey can't figure out how to apply it. maybe....u'd hate all da words in da english language, or chinese or whateva language if every word wuz interchangeable so that everyone word can mean sorry. what i'm trying to say is.....how can you hate a word of such sorrow? as u noe.....GOD created da heavens and de earth, he created a time for sorrow and a time for celebration....so wuz da point of hating a word of sorrow....

to da same person......u hate da word love.....so do you hate it when i say dis to you, i love you? i think i noe why u say u hate the words love and sorry.....is it because it's overused? yeah...dat maybe da case.....but i dunno.....to meh.....emotions are almost everything in lyphe....yeah, they don't last, but while dey do, u should try to enjoy every bit of it...even if it's sadness, anger, madness, or happiness and joy.....so a word to express da way u feel can't be wrong can it? just because it's overused doesn't always mean dat it doesn't mean n e thing....dat's all i have to say at da present moment...maybe it's my kinda cheery mood, but i dunno......dere are just sum things i wanna say before i go.....

yeah, my church.....my sunday skool teacher asked da class what i had dat i suffered from....u noe i really didn't noe what to say.....i wuz smiling only cause i knew every one of the things i was suffering from....maybe just simple problems...but dis wuz my answer.....dere is nothing easy......i think dat answered alot about my personality....but no one really cared cept prolly one or two people.......dey didn't really notice what a big impact it meant to meh to say dat, but it makes no difference...what i said is said...can u figure out why things are never easy? dere is no easy way???? do you understand what i'm trying to say??? i doubt dat u do, but at the same time....i think you do because everyone of ya would understand if you tried to care just a wee bit more....

another question.....have u eva thought of what u'd have said at ur funeral??? my class is of youths and with three adults including da teacher.....only one outta da three adults thought of dere funeral....but meh....i'm only sixteen....laughed at the matter....saying....yes, i have everything planned, just look at my diary, i have my funeral arrangements and everything. laughing yet??? just like you, people in my class say i'm morbid......but really.....if you say dat....u dun understand meh much......dere are a few reasons....but one dat came to da bak of my head.......maybe phychologically i wrote it because i just wanted to die.....but now i look at it....dere's more den just dat....i wanted to be prepared....i don't want others planning it for meh......i don't really like it when people do things i've oughtta have done myself....