brian!!!! i'm going insane. i don't know why. but eversince i wuz beginning to like go press ur name on aa, i had dis feeling dat something wuz wrong, as if you just ain't feeling great or sumthing.. what made meh feel worst wuz when, i clicked, and ur pagie, wuz instantly all blank, and i just started to cry. i don't even know if you bother to read my thoughts n e more, i don't care if you read it or not. i know at the time, ur upset, ur frustrated, and you don't wanna talk. i just can't help it. dese tears ain't stopping for some reason. maybe it's because lately i've been under stress with skool and leadership classie, but i really don't know. all i know is dat when i went to ur pagie, and it wuz all blank, it wuz like a part of me wuz ripped out again. yeah, we've lost contact, but in a sense, we haven't and yet only become close. i want you to read this, but it doesn't matter if you don';t. i don't need to know what is exactly going wrong, all i know is dat right now, i don't care wuz bugging you, and that you are bugged, and dis is already making meh cry tears enuff to hurt. i mean, my tears are not flowing like i river through my eyes, but they are more like tears in my heart. as i say i miss you, now that you are annoyed, unhappy, unpleasant, or in a state which is uncomfortable, i miss you even more. maybe it's for all the times that you've been there for meh, but maybe it's just the sense becauase there's really a part of meh that i feel ripped out. maybe it's just because i cherish the way you are soo much dat i don't need you to tell meh what's wrong. i'm being repetitive now, but i can't help it. i can't stress enuff how important i think all my friends are. and none more important as you, because outta all my friends, u never just left meh there, u still helped meh get bak on my feet. now that i'm bak on my feet, i'm not returning the fave, i simple just wanna be by ur side through thick and the thin, i just wanna be there as i try to be there for everyone. i'm shaking now, i don't know why, i'm cold, yes, but it's a chill from the inside out. I MISS YOU MORE THAN EVER!!!!!