yeah....i'm living a lie. and i know it. i'm hypocritical, yeah that's for sure. i love, but yet i hate. i dream, but i do not. i run, but have no where to run. i close my eyes wishing all things are just a figment of my imagination wishing that they weren't real. yeah, my english is deteriorating, i can't speak much english any more. my dreams, they hold no value. what you do not see in me, i don't see either. what i truly wish is that sometimes, i'd just walk to the ends of the earth, fall in a pit, and never rise. i'll eat the sands of time, and longing that i'd die. one of these days, maybe that's where i'll be. in a pit, wishing to die, but time is so cruel, life is so cruel, it likes to torture the tormented.

dreams simply just don't exists. nothing can make it any more real than it already is. no hope, no faith, no love, not anything can make it real. yeah, say i'm bitter, but yeah, i live my life in shadows of happiness, and so i long for or try to seem happy. this world doesn't like the realistic, it doesn't like the idealistic, it does not like the pessimistic, it does not like the bitter, this world does not enjoy the company of really living. args.....i am bitter, so bite me. on a better note...why don't u just kill meh since you have sooo much against me?

args...anger drives a person to hatred, and that hatred may one day may turn you into a psychopath...this i'm serious, because you take one look at meh, and you will never really see what is going on inside my head. args.

you are not shy, you simply just don't want to talk to people. you are not that type to be a talkative person. args....hahaha=>:D:P but i dream of you, wishing that you could make me happy, but i know, you will not and cannot, for happiness is a state of mind, not what is inflicted upon urself. yeah, i'm being stupid. i talk in circles. yeah, i talk with a bad attitude. you have a frickin problem? go kick my ass. yeah, dreaming these days just ain't worth it.