args, this makes me frustrated. sighs sighs. no one listens to me. no one ever does. hm. and then thoughts of what winston said to me, makes me cry over and over again. no one listens to me because no one cares. yeah, that's the truth. i treat myself special because i feel that i am. sighs sighs. i don't know what to say.

i live two separate lives. one during the day, and one during the night. it's confusing. so very confusing. during the day, i seem to be as happy as ever. and then well, during the night....a night where i'm upset. sighs sighs. tired. hm. went shopping for groceries today. keke^^ great fun. keke^^ yupz yupz.