sighs. it's so hard to know you, because you just never allow me to understand. everytime i come near, all you do is just push me away, but you still give me the look and feel that you still need me. i greet you with open arms and a warm heart with smiles. but yet, you just walk away leaving me to stare blankly into the place you once were. no, i'm not heartbroken, it's worst. i'm confused beyond the state of confusion. i'm depressed beyond the state of depression. i'm full to the point that i'm almost empty. contriditory. i am human too. i'm glad you are my friend, even though....time and time again, you leave me in the rain. it is better to be alone then with many people sometimes. but yet again, being in big crowds, i still remain feeling empty and alone. i feel as if no one cares even though i know they do. i'm the worst sort of person. i'm wrong to every right. i only want what i can't have. and when i have what i wanted, i no longer find a need for it. sighs sighs. i'm the one that has lots of trash. i'm the one that never sees the treasure. i am the one that no longer wants to see or understand. you say i'm long aired. you say you've heard my words over and over again. does it truly matter? if you never heard what you heard once, don't you forget? if you know my words so well, does that mean you know me well? i'm confused.