i am miserable. i am not happy. i am christian but what part of me is christian? what?!?!? what?!?!? what?!?!? i don't tell people my problems unless they ask. i feel like i'm using people when i go and just tell them everything that's wrong and going through my head. why can't i just forget everything that's happened to me? why?!?! why!?!? why?!?!? i'm no longer a good person. i have never been a good person. or have i been? i was never innocent. i had always needed to face what many others did not face. my tears have become nothing. my tears have just left marks on my face permanently. am i that horrible that no one wants me? am i that horrible that the only place doesn't even want me there n e more? what part of me is christian? should i not have these doubts? shouldn't i be firm in my believe? how do i act christian? how?!?! how?!?!? how?!?! i believe that GOD is the son of GOD. i believe that he created the world in 6 days and on the 7th he made it the day of the rest/ sabbath. i believe that GOD sent his son JESUS to die on the cross and save me from my sin. i believe that satan is there trying to steal my soul away. but how oh how do i act christian?!? how am i being an ambassador of christ?!?!?