i have motivation like an artist....but i have a personality like a drone worker...but it's not like anyone understands. it's not like anyone cares. i am not creative. and i am stupid....but sighs.....i can't help that. sighs sighs. i am highly motivated to do my work...i do what i am told.....but i can't just make things up at the top of my mind. my group members don't understand me. it's not that i want them to do everything by themselves...they simply just haven't asked me to do sumthign that i would be able to help in. they never told me to do anything...so i just help with the preparations of experiments...sighs sighs.....i should have dropped this course....