sighs sighs....i'm one really messed up person...sighs sighs.....it's all my fault...all my fault.....or is it? sighs sighs. i should stop blaming and making excuses for what people are calling me and saying about me. sighs sighs. my lack of confidence is once again showing. sighs sighs. i hate school....i wish i could just drop out and never return....or better yet...just become the dust that people walk on. but most people don't even know what i'm implying...meh. not my problem. sighs sighs. people don't know who i am. they don't understand the way i work. they don't understand thati have motivation like an artist....but a personality more like a worker drone. sighs sighs. no one understands me. people ask me how i am....or at least how i'm doing. and well...there are only a few that care. it's not my fault that when doing things i am not as creative and independant as others is it? it's not a crime to do really well what others tell me to do. sighs sighs. i lack creativity. i often times lack motivation too. but i am ever so slowly trying to improve on that. but when something like this happens in my life.....i loose all that i have learnt to build upon. i have a weak support....and things like this only make me weaker. sighs......