confused....

i have sooo many friends that just wish that they could be out of the house every living moment. but yet they are not thankful for what they have. i'm confused. their parents can and try their very best to ive them the world, but yet, the do nothing to show appreciation to it. they clothe you, they give you a roof above your head, they feed you. what more can you ask for? i mean, even if you were abandoned in a pit at the age you are now, i'm pretty sure you will find a way to survive, but.....think way back to when you were a baby. you were completely defenseless, and could do nothing for yourself. if you had a conscious mind of the things you were doing, you were probably hurting yourself more, but you don't see it. sighs sighs. i don't even remember what i said about someone to val. i just remember her saying it was a good example of how that person was.

oh wellz. i know i meant it then. honestly, it hurt......not the fact that you didn't invite me, but the meanings behind not inviting me. byt not inviting me, it could have meant sooo many things. but maybe i'm thinking too muchie, and if i told other people of whta you did, they would probably side with you. but it really doesn't matter how and which side they agree with, but i know how i feel. i know that i feel neglected because you didn't bother to ask. you simply assumed that i wasn't doing n e thing. yeah, val thought that i would go too, but on the previous night or the day of the fair, she would have asked whether or not i actually was going. yeah.....it does hurt. in the beginning it was just3....then 4.....fine....and then 5......and then you leave with the fifth, inform me of your plans, and you do not ask whether or not i would like to join. i would have said no n e ways because i don't have that kind of money to bust, but the point is well.....it hurts. i try so hard to be your friend....but yet you seem ungrateful at times of the time and effort i spend. sighs sighs. you say thank you at the time, but do you honestly remember after time has passed? are you honestly thankful or do you just think i'm another person that you tell problems to, like your blog? i honestly feel like you are pushing me away......but on the other hand....it's more like you are just leaving me in a room standing in one corner all by myself....even though you are in the room too. i try to join you, but you are too distracted by other people to notice. i don't know. i don't blame you, you have always chosen other company over mine, but i have demonstrated it too. but meh.....things change. time change. people change.