Sighs

i'm worried all about myself. i'm sucha selfish concieted little prick! sighs sighs. everyone of my friends is like in severe like death situations, and i worry about my own. just because i don't get what i want complain, whine and bitch about it. sighs sighs.

why am i sooo selfish? sighs sighs. why am i sooo concerned with myself? sighs sighs. there are many more things that i should be afraid for instead of myself. sighs sighs. i'm human i know, and it is in human nature to be scared for ones own life.....but still....sighs sighs.

i miss my friends. i miss not talking to them often.

i'm glad that i still have a few in my classes such as ray, jordan, matt, scott, alex, sonya, steve. sighs...but most of these people i don't even talk to besides ray and jordan. i rarely even talk to matt, scot, alex sonya or steve. sighs sighs. last year was sooo much better.

i think i'm falling apart. if i have started the semester like this, man, it will only get more severe. sighs sighs.

i like a scheduled life, it's what i'm made for. but sighs....my schedule can just go down to the dumps because i don't get to see much of n e one. sighs sighs. no one shows concern. no one comes looking for me. sighs sighs. oh wellz. what can i say? i'm not as important as i hope to be. but meh, that's just depression and self-unworthiness kicking in. sighs sighs.

holy crap, i think i really need to go get some drugs for my psychological problems. but i have never been one to rely solely on medicine. seriously, getting ill and getting better is mainly because you will it to or will it not to be. sighs sighs.

everyone has their problems, i know nothing going on in many people's life because i only concern myself with what I, ME, MYSELF feel! how pathetic is that? sighs sighs.