sighs sighs......i am majorly annoyed. but oh wellz. sighs......maybe i'm just tooo tired and way too hungree. i'm supposed to be doing hmwk....but i can't concentrate...sighs sighs.....
my heart feels sooo heavy. but i don't know why it does either, it just does. sighs sighs. haveta start going to le biblioteque and like find some stupid sources for my research project. fucker.....=.=
yeah......i swear sooo much now. sighs sighs. gotsta cut back on this foul mouth talking.
my sister's coming back today for like five minutes before she is leaving again. so yeah. blah....great visit aye?!?!?
well at least she gave me her like cell phone....but i really much work on my calc. i haven't been doing my homework....i wouldn't be surprised if i didn't pass this test....i've been lazing around for this unit. it's the introduction to calc and i started like not trying already?!?!? crap....
want to go to the gym tonight....but i don't know if i will be able to.
well i want to go to a party on the 30th. but i ain't sure if i'll be able to go....sighs sighs.....i really hope that my parents let me go.......args.....a party with 21 year olds?!?!? blah......and i'll be the youngest. as usual.....i won't fit in. obviously cause i just don't like "chill" with strangers very well. i get tooo nervous talking to strangers. plus, i can't really look people in the eyes when they are talking to me......that look in their eyes like burns my soul metaphorically speaking of course....sighs sighs.
my friends may or may not notice that i don't look at their eyes....but when i look at them, i don't always look them straight in the eyes......i just cant. i always tend to look down at my feet.....blah. yeah....when it comes to strangers....i have like no egh....self-confidence or rather i'm just tooo self-conscious when i'm around strangers. blah....i don't know...should i go or should i not? i mean......it would be good to go to a party....since i haven't gone for sooo long...if ever gone to one....so yeah...don't knwo how i'd actually handle social situations like this aye?!?! so i suppose it would be nice to go to this one as a new experience?!?! blah.....yeah i sound sad aye?!?! but it's true....i don't go to parties....at least ones with people who i don't know. i'll be sticking out like a sore thumb because i'll be the unhappy chickadee in the corner i suppose.....
i'm not planning to drink.....i hate beer....but i like coolers...keke^^:D:P straight vodka n e one?!?!? blah...but i don't plan to drink....tooo many consumed calories...so yeah. and plus, i just don't like the taste.
should i go or should i not???? my friends want me to go.....but then again....it would kill me to go.....i'd rather have a party with a few clothes friends prefered to the random uni people party...args args.....
not that great of a dilemna...but still.....should i go or should i not?!?!
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