nah jo, if n e thing, i'd feel bad......what i do for you is homework, i don't pay for it. if n e thing, it would be me using your gas....serious man.....you always drive me places cause i don't have a car and i don't have a job. if n e one was to feel bad about being used....it should be me. don't worry about it. what i do to help is because i want to. plus, i don't do shit that i don't want. keke^^:D:P so don't worry bout it. if i thought i was being used, i'd say something. don't worry about it. i'm serious, i don't feel used. i like to do work, it keeps me going. it keeps me away from my own enemy, me.
lately no one would know how lonely i feel, but it's not because i'm not with friends, but i just do. i feel like i'm running on empty. i like winter, but blah.....for the last few years around this time i've felt like shit. and i can't get myself out of this shit hole cycle.
sighs.....i don't feel like telling my problems to n e one. and lately, i haven't blogged either. and now, i find it even hard to blog about my thoughts. i simply just wish to keep them to self. sighs sighs.
having another breakdown. oh how great....args....there's nothing wrong in my fucking life. sighs. an excuse to be unhappy. sighs. this isn't the way i want to feel. how can that be an excuse if i don't even wanna feel this way?!? how?!?! sighs sighs.
what's wrong with me?!?! sighs.
some say it's just being a teenager. some say it's just being human. some just say there isn't n e thing wrong. some people say it's depression. some people say it's an excuse. some people say it's stupidity. some say it's ignorance. some simply just don't give a damn. sighs.
i think i'll sleep....i can't really wait till brian comes back....i have a test tom.....
i just wanna jump off that cliff.......sighs......knowing me...i'll prolly land on dog shit....keke^^:D:P sorry, that's just funnay...
yeah...steped in dog shit again today....yeah...from a bad day to a worst day....sighs sighs.....
stupid irresponsable people leaving their dog's shit all over the place. holy shit, if people don't wanna pick up dog shit, then don't have a dog! have a cat! fucking idiots! blah....i'll pick it up if i haveta, but if my mother or sister or father were there, of course i'd want them to pick it up...so yeah.....stupid people.....
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