wow

well now, people think it's scary that i haven't like updated for like 3 days, and it's not because my pc had a breakdown. i just haven't felt like going on line.

i'm supposed to be studying now, but i really don't feel like it...

warning all those that may look through my agenda, i won't let you.....yeah....i just won't....

yeah......lately feeling very well egh.....not bubbly just say. not enthusiastic, not hyper, just plain.....just egh....nothing to describe it besides just plain and boring then. sighs sighs.


i can't wait to get outside of this stupid white snobby bubble called oakville. sighs sighs.

i'm being driven insane.....

sighs sighs....all i feel like doing is isolating myself.......i think i kinda achieved that though. i mean, i know i have friends and they always ask me what's wrong, but it's not that, i feel sooo alone.....but i know i have friends. my friends care and i know they do, just because i don't see them, i don't tlak to them doesn't mean they ain't my friends, but i ain't sooo sure of that about how those "friends" think i am. blah.....some of those people i call friends never really ever thought of me as a friend....so it really makes no difference. and the thing is, there are only just sooo many people that i call friends....oh wellz.

living in my own bubble.....i see things....and i feel like it's going to pop, maybe it's better that it does. and i hope when it does pop.......i hope it's with mandy around me because i'll sooo yell at that bitch for all the immaturity and bullshit she talks about me behind my back. grrr.... i know i shouldn't play sooo low......i just hope one of these days that i don't burst....but i know that day will happen when i can't take this bull shit from her n e more. blah...her words should mean crap since all that comes out is shit....