well i wasn't planning to go out tonight, and i did.....but it caused sooo many problems. sighs, jordan paid for sooo much gas money....keke^^:D:P not laughing about that she paid for gas, but i left a bit of my skills somewhere.....yupz yupz. hope she won't notice.
well the first part of our nite wasn't tooo bad. from one drink to the other......first we went to timmy's....we got a coffee...then i said let's go to br.....and i got my taro milk tea with bubbles....and jordan got the oreo milk tea with bubbles. yeah......thanx for the suggestion cat.....it tasted great!!! yupz yupz. that part of the night was pretty good......
and then....things went drastically bad.....when we called val to and asked where the hell she was....
sighs......i feel sooo bad.....
sighs sighs....well n e whoo.....val was feeling antisocial.....but she didn't tell us this till the whole night was pretty much over.....args..... sighs......it didn't even sound like she wanted to be with us to begin with. she was supposed to call before she was leaving the house. but she never even called us. args args. we were sooo confused and worried when we kept on calling and no one picked up. val never does that.
and then finally, when she does call.....she makes everything sound like nothing's happened. sighs sighs. she didn't only just ditch us, it sounded like she completely forgot about us. args.
val's never done this, but she's pulled a ray.....but the thing is.....ray actually apologized for the entire thing and it sounded sincere. val on the other hand....made it sound like it was a joke. sighs.....to me, val doing this is no big deal, i'm rather used to being ditched. i just feel sooo bad for jo. i mean, she normally only works two days a week and she got today off just to go to screemers. but she didn't go because i didn't go....and val never ended up going.....so yeah.... you see how upset she is?
sighs..... i can't even start to fathom how upset jo is.....because i know getting ditched is a totally big thing for her. and i feel sooo bad on her behalf.
it's not the ditching that's all that bad.....it's the unable to give an explanation that makes it all the worst.
i do care that you feel bad because it's close to a certain date that you'd rather forget, but the thing is.....why the hell didn't you just tell us before all this to tell us you were feeling anti social.....but what i don't get is how the hell do you feel antisocial and hang out with a guy. it seems like you are ditching us for a guy.....emotionally i can kinda relate cause i've been feeling all antisocial lately...you will never understand how antisocial.....but the fact is....you left us for a guy, didn't bother to call...and when we called you, you didn't seem like you even cared.
sighs val.....you ditched us for a guy whether you see it that way or not. you did and that's the end of the story. the main key....you ditched us....not for your mom, not for your brother, but for a damned guy that i met once and called a sweetie....and i still think he is....but he brought such a side of you that i've never seen before val. you ditched us, didn't call us, left us worrying for the whole night and you didn't give us a pausable explanation. yeah, you were feeling antisocial, so was i, i've been feeling anti social for like a whole week and a half now....but i didn't go run off to be with a guy.....i wanted to spend the weekend with friends knowing that hanging out with friends would keep me sane.....but i didn't ditch you or at least didn't want to....
you've just left me confused and lost for words. this whole time i thought your cell ran out of batteries and that's why you never called....but i guess that just wasn't it. when you told me that you did absolutely jack shit with mark, aka kram, i got sooo much more confused because you didn't even THINK to call us.....or so it seems.....give me a shout when you feel like telling me the whole long story. right now, i'm just sooo confused...
jo, i'm sooo sorry for your half-assed night. i'll make it up to you some way or another.... i didn't mean for it to turn out like this for you....i'm sooo sorry.....*hugs and kisses*
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Hola, i'm sorry that you guys didn't think it was sincere...i just didn't really wanna say anything too much in front of mark and matt...cause i don't really think mark knows about the whole anti-social dealy...but see i was feeling anti-social in a TOTALLY different view from your anti-social...i was feeling anti-social to the fact that i was feeling incomplete and in a sense uncared and unwanted...i had a fight with my mom so we didn't end on good terms taht night...and i knew that if i went to mark's house he could slightly fill that void a bit...in a sense just having someone there to just hug, helped a bit, but thats still no excuse for me not to call you i know...and i'm sorry to make you guys worry about me...totally not my intentions...but i dunno...like i can see in a sense why you think that i ditched you guys for mark...but like it wasn't even that he was a guy, its just in a sense that he was able to give me something that you guys can't...well...not can't but won't...but not in a bad sense, in the sense that you guys are straight...and id unno...like i know i was still wrong for not calling you guys, and i totally admit to that...but i dunno...i can't really think of a good "reason"...and i don't really think there is a reason good enough for it...but yeah, i'm not sure what else i can do...but i am sorry...
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