kinda sooo weird, i wuz looking in da mirror tonight and i noticed sumthing. i look so fake. i'm just hiding behind dis image which people call SABINA. well maybe it's just because of da semi dyed hair dat makes meh feel fake, but maybe it't not. what's actually pathetic is dat i'm proud of being chinese, but yet i'm willing to hide behind things dat i am not. why did i dye my hair to begin with? now because i've done it once, i cannot imagine myself with any other color besides brown hair. i suppose image is very important to everyone, even if you say u dun care. sum where inside of you knows u want to look semidecent. but meh on the other hand, i suppose my sister is rite, i hide behind de image of myself. i am 100% myself when it comes to being personality, but when it comes to being matter of confidence, i suppose i lack alot. dere are alot of things i cannot handle. hm...mabye one of it being myself. maybe i'm just one lil confused gurl. things i wished i didn't understand, but i did. and there are things wish i did understand. bak to my knitting. my silent activity. hehehehe=>:D

sars is bak. sighs sighs. dis world is getting worst and worst. i'm become afraid, not for myself, but for everyone. well let's count, dere was ecoli, dere wuz dat beef thing, dere wuz dat sars, den dere wuz dat darkness....man, wuz da count now? four??? sooo weird...oh wellz.