once again.....i'm hurt by those people's actions dat didn't even mean to hurt meh. today wuz supposed to be a nice, fun day. sumthing i woulda enjoyed...but i dunno wuz wrong.....i can't eat, can't sleep.....even doe i noe i'm hungry and tired. sighs sighs....

yeah yeah....some people say it's pms....but really......how can it be? do i have pms at least twice a month?!?!? what da heck...if you think dat's possible....i tell ya......it can't....unless i got through a mentral cycle twice a month....and if you're wondering....really i do not....yeah...personal lyphe.....i dunno....i could spit out my mind about everyone rite now if you actually asked meh...but really......why should i??? it's not like most of ya people read dis ne ways....u dun bother to read it even doe i tell ya to. so wuz da point of saying?

maybe sum people just aren't meant to be happy....and dun say i'm wrong...because i already noe i am....so dun rub it in my face.....i would just slap you rite now if you did say i wuz wrong.....so dun bother unless u wanna get hurt......i'm going insane again. maybe i need to go on sum drugs.....to cheer dis pissy moods dat i always get.

i really wanna relax and ease my mind......but i can't help it....lately i've been getting dese really bad headaches again......i suppose dis happens everytime i'm upset or pre-upset......so yeah.....

well today i ate a pudding....and before dat.....i wuz braiding my friends hair....but at dat time....i had just finished swimming...u noe what??? well u noe what happened to meh at the theatres?!?? well dat started to happen at tony's house dis time......one of da reasons i got outta da pool wuz because i couldn't breathe...maybe it wuz da feeling dat i didn't fit in dat caused dat shortness of breathe, racing heart and pounding headache.....but all da same....what happened has happened...

i thought u were my friend....but i wuz standing rite beside you and u forgot to even mention meh to go to ur house....how can you be so cruel. all u remembered were da times u spent with tony at ur house....have i already been forgotten....just because i prolly wouldda denied ur offer dun mean u should stop asking meh.....u noe.....it hurts....hurts alot.....yeah....i may have been cold leaving da car....i didn't say good bye and i didn't look bak....u wanna noe why??? because i wuz crying in my heart and looking bak or saying sumthing prolly wouldda spilt my tears.....yeah....i thought u were my friend....but time and time again....i see dat u are....but at times....i feel soo neglected....maybe i can be dere for ya....but at least i would invite you to sumthing soo measily as a sleepover if i invited one person....or at least i wouldda given you an explaination why u couldn't have......but u are soo cruel lil gurl....but i will remain ur friend, loyal and strong....only because, u are my friend.....down to the very tiniest fiber.....i will not neglect you unless i neglect myself......

loe and behold.....i will be urs too, full hearted and true....no stride too wide, no water too deep......i will be dere......whereva u are...whateva u need.....i will be dere to provide comfort and care if possible.....just give meh time....