sighs. i am that spoiled little brat that i really didn't want to become. sighs sighs. i always get what i want and i can't understand why people won't leave me be. sighs sighs. mabye i'm not made to be a human with human emotions and a human body. maybe i shoulda been dust all my lyphe. sighs.

why such a bad day? why? why does my sista not think that i treat her as my sister? maybe it's just the way i am, i will forever be close to my friends and myself before i'll ever get close to my family. i'd rather tell my friends n e thing before i'd tell my parents. that's just the way i am. i've never had that bond, and i am not willing to try for it. why? because i'm afraid, because it hurts too much to try. yeah, my parents to be sooo far away. even when i ask a simple yes or no question, it takes them forever to answer meh and get to the point. yeah, it's like dis for alot of people, but i don't think you people understand how bad it is da way it is now. maybe i should just drink sum bleach and end up in hell. sighs, GOD is my strength, he is my protector, he is my LORD, MY EVERYTHING. i'm falling apart once more.