sighs, i ain't thoughtless right now, i'm just not veyr much in a mood to talk about what i feel at the present moment. al i can say is dis, if you were to talk to meh on msn, and you have msn6, den you'd see dat my display pic is a crying angel. if you found that image on line, u'd notice that that angel has never ending tears, they run over and over till your pc stops or sumthing. at the present moment, that's how i am, not on the outside, but on the inside, my heart weeps beyond.

i can't say dis is da time i've cried da most, because at a time in my lyphe, da tears in my heart choked meh, and i really cried endless tears. whatever the case maybe, maybe it was my fault, but if you don't accept my apologies, and ur just holding a grudge, den maybe u should see that there's more to lyphe. u think ur sooo smart, u think ur sooo right, is it my fault that you have an ego problem? man, lower urself. treat urself how you treat others. maybe then you'd see that you ain't perfect either. man. u yell at meh thinking ur all high and mighty, but really, who gives you that authority. if you ask for respect, you don't know what it is because you obviously don't show much to other people's feelings. unless the fact is that you have no feelings so you don't feel how much u damage people, den i would find no better explaination for it.

time and time again, for the past two weeks, i have been expressing my anger about the same person over and over again. it does get kinda sickening. i can't help it. if someone could just once again come and sweep meh off my feet, maybe i'd feel nothing at all again. maybe i'd learn to not care. mabye i'd just grow cold from things that i don't want to happen to meh. hahaha=.:D:P i don't know.

i thought i was dead, but maybe i'm being shown a sign that i ain't dead. dead people can't even feel hatred. dead people can't feel love. dead people can't feel. so basically, i'm not dead, just somewhat only half alive, like a vegetable person. in a sense, only mentally, because physically, i am definately moving. sighs sighs....