sighs. yeah, i'm not a player, and relationships mean more to meh than you'd ever think. yeah, i know i have a horrible relationship with my parents, and i know, it's entirely my fault. i just don't know how to communicate with my parents. yes, we can talk about skools, we can talk about clothes, we can talk about money, we can talk about GOD. but we can never talk about us. hm. i suppose i should sleep soon, i'm soo angry at this present moment that tears are starting to form in my eyes. arg. crying endlessly. not for sumone dead either, for someone who's alive, but dead to meh now.

when you die, i prolly won't go to ur funeral. not that i don't wanna pay a dead person my last respects, but really, i don't think i could handle it. i think i'd go insane. i snap at the smallest of things, not intentionally, but yeah, i still snap n e ways.

yeah, i'm softhearted you say, some may say i'm cold because i'm able to hate. sighs sighs. it's in our nature to be angry and hate. sighs. anger is what drives emotions to hate. i can't say i wanna hate, but i can't say dat i don't wanna. sighs sighs. i'd say i want you to go to hell, but i know deep down inside, i'd rather have you all in one peice in heaven n e day.

u wan my respect, u have always had my respect, always. remember this, it's you that always goes and yell at me first, i just sit ther and listen and think about what you said. u think i'm stupid. u think i don't think. u think i'm just a stupid lil gurl, but in the same way, i can say the same thing about you. not that you would care much of n e. people say i take things too seriously, den i'm going to say it to you, u should just let go, it's not our faults that we can't make it to a certain place, or dat we said we would go and told you we couldn't afterwards. it's not our fault.

u think i haven't changed, yeah, look again. not with ur eyes, not with ur heart, but see with ur mind. dig into ur memory of the person i was, yeah, u never accpeted meh then, so no matter how much i changed now, u still will never accept meh.

it's not my problem dat all you want is change. it's not my problem that you think ur right and everyone else is wrong. it's not my problem dat i'm sabina not da sabina person dat you want meh to be.