hm.....whack....i haven't posted many thoughts for a while. but the thing is....i've been as troubled as hell could ever be. i can't sleep at night now. and i can't talk as much because i lost my motivation to do anything. you definately know something is wrong with me....i haven't been able to do anything except sleep. yeah....talking is my favourite pass-time and i seem to not want to talk at all. there must be sumthing wrong. i'm talking to val on the phone and the instant i call her....i don't know what to say. i'm falling deeper into depression. i can feel it. i can't smile. and all i think of is what i dream of. and what i dream of is what i think of. it's soo sad. sighs sighs.