i will never be able to choose one side of my friends. if they are my friends...they wouldn't tell me to pick....i'd rather just leave knowing that i didn't break their friendship. but then again...maybe everythign that happens now is due to some reason......destiny is is really hard to decipher. but then again....does it matter?? what you do inflicts its own consequences anyways...so why bother with all that crap la? friends say i'm pretty....others say i'm wird...and even more just call me hideous? but then again....those that call me hideous...do they know how i am on the inside or are they just calling me that because the are not secure of themselves?

don't know...don't want to know....and even if i did know...will i care????