really. i don't even know if cat'll still read my thoughts after she like has talked to me. hm. it's weird, but i think it's cause we are very alike in many ways....except for age difference i think. reading people's thoughts is like an invasion on people's privacy i think.....but still i'm just being hypocritical i suppose. keke^^ it's really weird.

reading her thoughts....it seems like i've been giving her more stress for a while. sighs sighs. i didn't mean to. i give her my biggest and warmest apologies. hey......when she comes back...which she said was the 30th......i'll prolly haveta give her some time to recover from jet lag. hm....wonder if she'll take my offer to go to bubble republic some time. keke^^ so she has like 4 favourite types of bubble tea.....wow....i've become stockerish......kinda scary for her...and i suppose for me. as i said earlier.....releasing your thoughts on line is like easy access to personal info. blah....at least i'm not travelling to singapore to see her....that would be very scary and very stockerish.

she offered to take me in at her house if i go to singapore. i'm assuming that was joke. but hey.....would be kinda nice wouldn't it?

i'm a little girl, and i still think like a little girl. when i'm happy that is.....i am a little girl. but when i am upset...the world shouldn't leave me alone for tooo long.

yeah.....i am pessimistic... but i'm in a body where there is tooo much energy. i suppose if i used up that energy to cheer up people....it's a good thing....but if i spend my energy on plotting revenge...that is bad. hm...

man.....cat flatters me by saying i'm really mature and really nice. makes me blush. she's one very sweet nice chick too. hm. she has what many singaporeans has. she has that willing heart to help. even though after soo much hardship and troubles, pains and toils....she hasn't lost that. she has a really great quality. she has that great compassion for others that i have noticed many singaporeans have.

many people become cold hearted and have distrust for the world after it's failed them sooo many times. i am glad that i'm not the only one that enjoys the feeling of falling in love. i just pray that next time, her heart will not be sooo easily in love with a person who will so easily through it away. The greatest treasure to any person is the person's heart, how you get there is of your choice.