sighs.....did my phrase....you are tooo cold hurt you much? sighs sighs. honestly, if i have hurt you alot, i sincerely apologize with all my heart. i didn't mean to hurt you, but honestly, in a sense you are. and i feel this especially to me. sighs sighs. i mean....we used to be very close. we could finish each other's sentences or thoughts. and i suppose we still can. sighs sighs. now days....you talk to val even more than you talk to me. sighs sighs. i can't say i'm jealous of this...i'm just hurt. my own buddy from skool tells me all the convos you have with her.....and yet....time and time again.....i don't even get a single word of hello unless my msn nn is like super depressed. what must i do to get your attention to just talk to me? for once, i would like to have a convo not on problems of what lies within our hearts. yet i think that these matters are what defines our friendship. sighs sighs. it saddens me to think of the way we are drifting. sighs sighs. i can't handle loosing another friend. i know time and time again out of no where you greet me to say hello.....but most of these times it's because my nn had been sad for a while. sighs sighs. i would like to know how your day was without me asking you. i would like to know whats on your mind without me asking you. but i know....not everyone is willing to spill all the beans like me. sighs sighs. i am sorry if i have offended you more, but i know when you read this that you will know who you are even though i didn't put a name in this entry. i know you will know.

on msn.....you are always on busy or away. no time is the right time for me to ever talk to you. sighs sighs. i don't know why but i needed to say it. i needed to speak what i wanted to say....and i know this will get me in trouble. i honestly know it will. but what can i do? it carries a whole big chunk of me everytime i go on msn or anywhere. i go on line, only looking forward to the certain people that would be talking to me.....one of them being you.....but you never talk to me. and when i do talk to you....it is as if you are unwilling to talk to me. you called me your best friend once. you called me your philosophical other......what has happened to all this? sighs sighs. i just don't know n e more. i don't like loosing my friends over a reason such as distance and time. i don't like loosing a friend over something i meant to say and have apologized sincerely for hurting if i have offended. i don't like loosing a friend that meant and still means the world to me. i would just rather not loose someone like you in my life again