why does any one wanna learn how to bottle up emotions? i don't get it...why? i do and i have mastered it....and even still.....i break down. i learnt to bottle my emotions because i was desparate. i didn't want to bug people. no one really wanted to listen to me. and honestly....i had been in and out of hardships sooo often that people just stopped listening even though they may have still cared. i'm an explosive can of pop with emotions that when shaken just enough will burst. but everyone is like that. it just depends on how much of a capacity you have. i have a low capacity. i burst out in tears any chance i have. well at least now i do. i've become sooo emotionally attached to everyone and everything in my life that i can't stop.

everyone's problem is love. but i'd rather hurt and love too much than love tooo little. that is why i'm devastated when something big happens to me. but i try to let it go. for some reason....i think my moodiness is an added effect to my lack of sleep and loneliness. meh.

wow.....alot of random internet dudes on my msn account. why the heck do sooo many people add me on their list? hm....eitha way....i met them on friendster. but still....scary. *chills* plus....i don't get why people assume i'm with someone. and when i tell them i'm single they are surprised even more and they apologize for it. meh.......another bunch of weirdies on line...keke^^

wonder if anyone will come online tonight and talkie to me. keke^^ that would just totally make my day if someone willingly messaged me. keke^^ i'm weird i know....but yeah....so are you. keke^^