blah.....i suppose i'll ask about it with my parents. they'll all prolly be pissed off if i went to that party coming home all drunk and crap. then if i go out on halloween and crap....they'd bitch at me for that too.
i think my parent's answer will be no for either cases....unless they don't notice the date....but i doubt that they won't. my daddy would probably compare me with my sister saying how lil she went out at my age and stuff like that. my mommy would probably try to convince my dad to let me to go, but ultimately even if he says yes to let me go, i'd feel like crap to go on either day....so what's the point. i don't know if n e one understands that feeling, but i'm pretty sure val would understand....but then again, she's kinda grown used to it kinda. blah....i don't know......i don't talk to strangers, especially good looking older strangers that i've never talked to on-line before. so yeah.....i don't think i'll have much fun doing either really.
i'll have fun doing either or, but when i come home...holy shitters, i'll be in a hell of a yelling of my life. grrr.....i just don't know what to do....i just don't know. sighs sighs.
there's a part of me that really really wants to go because it would be another social event, but then there's another great part of me that says no no no because i really really really want to go. args.....but then again, i'm christian.....if i go out on halloween, what kinda image am i giving off? i mean, to many christian's out there, they really think it's no big deal, but is it really not that big? i think not....but that's just the way i was raised, and if people wanna convince me otherwise, you can go ahead and try, but i'm sure i won't budge. i don't believe in dressing up as something dead or evil. why the hell would you want that?!?! i think it's utterly stupid, but if people enjoy it, well that's what they do with their past time. i don't give out candy, so don't come round my house, i won't give you n e thing. i'm anal on things like this.....so yeah....
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