wow

i don't know why, but suddenly, i don't feel sooo happy.

sooo many problems with other people. none of it affects me personally, but yet i don't know....it makes me think about my own situation.

let's see, people always say that when they are with someone, they want to be single, but when they are single, they wish to be with someone. do you find this true for yourself? i ask this question to myself, and then when i come to think about it, i find that this statement totally does not relate to my life.

and then when i think of my answer to that question, i wonder why i think the way i think this way. and then it appears to me that i'm tooo sensitive. it appears to me that i think tooo much. then it appears to me that my friends were right, i'm just too into "relationships." simply, this is because i am in love with the idea of being in love and end up loving everything. this is not necessarily bad, and is not necessarily a good thing either. but me no noe. sighs sighs. it's weird how it comes to be in like waves of thoughts.

i dont' know, but sometimes, i just become gloomy for no apparent reason.

holy crappers guy, i realy gotsta stop rushing myself in doing things. it's not good for me. i believe in GOD. i believe in fate. i believe in destiny. but you know, even though i do believe in all these things, i most definately believe that there is a plan. but, even though there is a plan, nothing will happen if i don't take the first initial steps. it doesn't mean now, but maybe in the future. holy crap.....me say but alot. grr.....need new vocab and conjunctions and connective words.....blah.