actions...

sometimes, actions speak louder than words, but there are those very very rare moments when some words are said or not said that leads to deafness, numbness, or maybe calmness.

i don't know why....but that's all i think about now.

as people think, it's probably my bad sleeping habbits and my lack of "good" sleep. as people say, on average people should sleep about 8 hours a day. but, there are stages to sleep that your mind is still awake.

lately, my parents have been telling me that i've been talking in my dreams alot. they say that it's no longer the same way i used to talk. they said before, i used to simply shout as if i were mad or angry at someone, but now days, it sounds like i'm talking like an insane person trying to calm someone or myself down. i sound like i'm on the verge of tears. blah....does this mean something?!?! is my mind not at rest even though it should be?! even in my sleep i think......holy crap..... the theories of sexual lusting or whatnot is somewhat relevant. but not everthing relates back to sex as young's theory say. blah....i'm very into psychology/sociology/anthropology......whack....how the only thing i'm good at is the only thing i like. but i don't know, after talking sociology, i think i might take teaching, or counselling, or maybe just go into a whole different field such as egh.....tourism? i don't know......sighs.....

but n e whoo.......going to the gym in about half an hour....gotsta find my other gym shirt.....=.=.....