hahaha=>:d i wuz right. my sister took my agenda. hahaha=>:d she took it the nite before she left. hahaha=>:D she just never mentioned it to me. hahaha=>:d yeah yeah. i suppose GOD let me calm down. my legs are still kinda numb from breathing too fast. but yeah. hehehe=>:d well i have a tape that was recorded from the night of the music nite. hehe=>:d it's gonna be returned to churchie of course. i will find a way to record it an make it into a mp3 file. but at the present moment, i don't have the equiptment, nor the energy or program. yeah. i'm mad, i'm frustrated. yeah, my anger is slowly turning into hate again. i don't wanna be this way, but my anger never subsides, no matter how hard i try for it to leave. arg!!!!

yeah yeah, i still haveta burn that cd for patty boi, but i haven't got the time. i promised that i would finish that memory verse book for him, but u'll just haveta wait till christmas to get it now, cause i wun have time to finish it once skool's started. i'm trying to add my finishing touches, i'm gonna ask jean and ann to draw lil bkg pics to make it not soo white. hehehe=>:d i'm pretty sure they will do it, cause well, dey love drawing. hahhaha=>:D i'm trying to make an accompilation of my fave jay songs. i really dunno if i should include simple love. i really hate that song now. there are many reason's why i hate dat song now. i used to love it, when well, things were better and i wuz happy. but now days, all i can rememba are happy memories of what i still want, but can't have.

i have never forgotten, i have never let go. hahaha=>:D u'll still be in my heart. hahahaha=>:d but it dun matta, u ain't gonna be reading dis. whateva.