am i that bad of a person that people like to repell me? yes, i'd admit, lately, i've been zoning out. i've been purposely leaving my mind elsewhere. yes, i want to be where my body is yes, but i just can't help it. with the people around meh, i still leave and just zone elsewhere. sighs sighs. people have been noticing i do that alot too. i'm tempted to just leave everyone and hide in the corner, but the thing with that is that it would never be possible, i like to talk too much. i don't talk about ur bad stuff, but my stupid stories. i like to give a stupid laugh to people. hahaha=>:d plus, most of my stories about myself are real to begin with. cause i always embarass myself, but i'm fine with it, i like to laugh at myself too. yupz yupz...

hehehehe=>:d bessie, i dunno if you even bother reading my thoughts, but weren't my embarrassing stories soo stupid, but funnay? hehehe=.:D i dun think i've eva told any one soo many stupid stories of what i've done before. hahaha=>:D i've been telling people stupid stories all days. sighs sighs. maybe i'm da person who always does stupid stuff, but fine

the longer the days go on, the further i seem to get from the ending point of the race. sighs sighs. i find no companion to run with, and i will finish the race alone. sighs sighs, my friend are still there, yes, in front, or behind, but no one is running with me, beside me. sighs sighs. oh wellz. there are actually tons, just that those people that i've neva met. so yes.....i'm lost in a big crowd at the beginning race of the marathon. sighs sighs. when will i find the person who will run with and beside me for the rest of my lyphe? sighs sighs.