yeah, all my thoughts are very long. i'm sorry about that. there just seems to be no other way to clear up most of my mind before i sleep n e more. it is not possible to call people and talk about my troubles everytime i have needs to talk to people. yes, people say they'll be there for meh, but i noe it's not true. u will not be there everytime because u either get fed up or u just plain think i'm annoying. maybe both, i do not know.

if i didn't care so much about everything, maybe i would be betta, i wouldn't be so unhappy all the time. i don't even noe why i feel this way, i just know i do. i want to sleep tonite, but there's just sumthing i haveta say before i do. i just dunno what it is. i'll just rack my brain of everything i have and then that'll just fix everything. sighs sighs....

one day, i will be a person locked up in a room with nothing to do except sitting there like a nut. at that time, i would be a nut. i can say, that really, i feel as if i dun die early, i'll just age very quickly, or i'll be sent to an asylum for intense depression disorder. i will not take drugs. i do not want to get addicted. so i would rather be depressed and blind to the world then to be distorted and "better" in the eyes of other people. i will not tolerate it.

if i had enuff tears to have cried an ocean, would i? if i had enuff heat to evaporate the sea, would i? if i had enuff strength to move the mountain, would i? would i cry those tears, would i dry that sea, would i move that mountain? could i cry the ocean, could i evaporate the sea, could i move the mountain? do i want to cry an ocean? do i want to evaporate the sea? do i want to move that mountain? i do not know. i wish i did, but i cannot help it. sihs sighs. i'm tired. gonna go sleep now....all the thoughts that i could possibly have today....so yeah...i'm sleeping now....good morning......

hope i dun get hit by a car crossing the street tom because of my tiredness.....well....l8a people.....