yeah yeah!!!! singing nite wuz a success!!! yeah yeah. i still can't hear my voice singing doe. i dunno which one is mine. does n e one wanna listen to it with meh and tell meh who it is ma? yupz yupz. hehehe=>:d i suppose dreams can come true, even if i'm not famous, at least the glory goes bak to GOD and i can still be famous within my church. hehehe=.:D yupz yupz. i dunno how i sound, do i sound n e good? hehehe=>:D well, i wuz dissappointed that not many people showed up, but i suppose dere wuz a meaning behind it. yeah, i wuz really dissappointed, but it's alritez. i've gotten over it.

yeah yeah, i don't even noe why i wuz sooo disappointed, i just noe i wuz. yeah. i suppose it's cause skool's starting, and i know that i will not spend as much time elsewhere this year. even though i have quite easy classes both semesters, i still haveta work hard. i must get nineties this year, because my goal is so. yes, i may not succeed, but does it really matter? as long as i tried my best, my all. i have promised myself that i would not go out unless i really felt like i needed a break from skool. i set my goals high knowing that i will not succeed, but i want to see how far i may go with my effort. have i not told you that i have never tried in my lyphe? the only thing i ever tried for was for personal relations. maybe that's why i'm always sad. i see that i will never be able to succeed in fulfilling the needs/wants of a friend in need. and i feel utterally lost. maybe i try to hard, and things just never go my way, it's just sumthing i haveta learn that lyphe will never go my way. but, i must tell you, every thing i've ever wanted, i got. i will never want you bak, don't worry about that. u will be nothing to me accept an aquaintance, and i noe the person i'm saying this to ain't gonna even read dis. so it makes no diff. yes, i will always love you the way i loved you from that first time i met you. yeah, u can say love at first sight, but maybe what i saw in you wasn't how funny u were. it wuzn't how nice u were. it wuzn't how fun u were to be around. what i saw wuz much diff. yeah, i wuz ur first. i don't care. normally first boyfriends or girlfriends don't last. only reason being because u dun understand or know how to treat or not to treat. u can only pretend that you do.

i don't know what to say. a part of me will always long for you bak, but i will never take you bak no matta how much i want you bak. i noe it's not meant to be and it will only end up in tears as it did the very first time. u will never ask for me bak. the most precious thing a girl can give away is her heart. once someone has taken it away, it's not sumthing that gurl can ever get bak. i don't tend to take bak my broken heart from you, u can keep it. i'll just let GOD do his job in healing the rip u caused. u didn't see what i saw in you. maybe i saw sumthing that u can never possibly find. maybe you don't even want to see what i can see. i don't care, but i care all at the same time. i gave you my heart, and u became afraid because my heart wuz too great for you. one day, GOD will give me someone who will be able to handle my heart. somone who sees what i see in him. someone good enough for anyones heart. he will be the only prince, and i, his only princess. GOD'll grant me someone'll who'll lead, but will follow all at the same time. i long for that day.